Brenton-Encinas Trio

Journey to the skinny me

2010-08-05T18:34:00.000-07:00

Wow it has been awhile .......
Sue and I have started a journey to a healthier us. We started working out in November and still are learning to eat healthier We fall and get back up and try not to beat ourselves up about it. So far I have lost fifty pounds and physically that is a big change. But menatlly I don't give myself permission to be thin.I have never been thin, I have always been the fat friend and in some ways I am havung a hard time becoming the skinny one. I appriciate the compliments I get, I really do. But even though I know physically I have changed mentally I just think I have hundred to go still.

Wow

2009-10-02T23:21:00.000-07:00

Wow the time has flown by.... My son is now three and America just keeps growing into her tall beautiful self. I know this is short . But I haven't forgotten my poor neglected blog.

Loneliness

2009-01-24T09:49:00.000-08:00

Lately it seems I'm getting lonely. It gets worse as the days goes by. So I was searching on line for what God says in the Bible about loneliness and came across this.....

My Child You're Not Alone

At times like these it's hard to find the right words to say,
And I know that words alone won't take the pain away.
But, I know a man who sits high, and looks low,
And He is saying, "My child, you're not alone."

He is saying, "I love you and I am concerned about you,
And all the pain and hurt that you are going through."
He is saying, "Lean on me, I will be your comfort through this time.
And although it’s dark now, the sun again will shine."

Even though it’s hard to see through tears that you now cry,
Just know that there will come a day when your tears, He will dry.
And though words alone won’t ease the pain that you now feel,
Just know that in time, your heart, He will heal.

I pray that God will give you peace, and strength in your heart
As He holds you in His arms, and from you, He won’t depart.
May you always be encouraged, may you ever hold on.
And remember, "My child, you're not alone."

I understand this poem and believe it is true......But now my loneliness has sadness because I don't know why. I know it's probably temporary that God is trying to teach me something.

I hope I figure it out soon.....

Knowing Myself

2009-01-22T19:26:00.000-08:00

Finding Myself
Current mood:Somber

I have another friend who just lost a baby girl at six months. She delivered her yesterday. Teeny, under a pound. Apparently she had liver failure. I could never imagine how it feels. There was of course Isaac who I blog about before.

I also lost a friend not to long ago.He was battling cancer for the second time and lost. Or maybe he won because he's finally made it home safe in the arms of God...

These past losses in my life have brought me to realize some things about myself. Before this wouldn't have necessarily have had any effect on me. Since I have found my way back to God I have been humbled. My emotions and expectations in my life have changed for the better. But in some ways its lonelier. Which is hard but I am also learning to live with that too because I'm tired of people wanting to be with me for the wrong reasons.

I also have realized that it also has made me a better parent. My heart has changed a great deal when it comes to my kids. They are my gift from God and as I watch them grow it makes my heart SOAR. I'm thankful they are in my life everyday. I am so proud of my children and the people they are growing up to be.

My soul is more at peace. As a result my relationship with God is growing. But not only do I know God more, I know myself.

The White Ghost

2009-01-13T16:28:00.000-08:00

I just thought I would catch a few of you up with us.
Josiah has been sick, stomach flu. It has been interesting to say the least. I decided to take advantage of the urgent need to go. I put him on the potty and told him to fart well with the flu he naturally went. So I rewarded him with candy. To get him to go pee is more complicated. I used the warm water trick and if he didn't go I told him to fart one more time and most of the time he pees. See how long that last.
On a different note.......

I clean my dad's apartment every two weeks and do his laundry. While America and I were hanging and folding clothes I happen to look at Josiah who was hanging up my dad's underwear. I decided to encourage him and hung them up in closet. ( I did call my dad and tell him why) When my dad returned home I got a text" Wow I have white ghosts in my closet LMAO"

Christmas Part 4

2008-12-28T11:39:00.000-08:00

Who said I was done.......... Lots more photos. Enjoy a peek into us celebrating the birth of Christ.

Sue opening Ella's blanket that Ella's new Shoes and Sue new I made Slippers(Thanks Annette)
Tomorrow is the 30th. So I took down my now sad Christmas Tree.
Ode to the Christmas Tree
Ode to the Christmas Tree who's beauty was overwhelming.
The lights sparkling thru the night
Serving as a reminder of a once bright star
That brought wise men to bring gifts to a chosen child
Even thou this child lives within many today,
The Christmas tree has seen better days.
Until next year beautiful ornament
Ode to the Christmas Tree

Christmas Part 3

2008-12-26T21:08:00.002-08:00

Would you believe I am now on Christmas......... I spent Christmas at my cousin's in-laws house. Yes the same from Thanksgiving. We also welcomed Annette back this year from Oregon. We have a slow schedule for Christmas. America was trying to hurry every one along. She wanted to open the presents. We all wake up and opened stockings, ate breakfast , showered , then one by one opened hte gifts. Ella slept thru most of it but was awake for the last few.

Christmas Part 2

2008-12-26T14:13:00.000-08:00

After all the programs and lights it was time for family. We went and visited my sister. Ended up spending the night due to our great weather conditions. But over all had a great time. Nothing like seeing family to remind you how much God has blessed your life.

Christmas Time Part 1

2008-12-26T12:52:00.000-08:00

Josiah looking at Christmas lights
Over the Christmas holiday we were busy doing lots of stuff. We had the church drama-musical. Also America had school music program. We also went to look at Christmas lights......
America looking at Lights

(below) America in School music program)
All and all we had lots of fun. I decided to show a few pictures.

Two more light photos

Dave Hegg

2008-12-18T09:06:00.000-08:00

Dave Hegg

Today I get to say goodbye to a friend. He was in his second battle with cancer. I remember talking to him after he found out it was back and what he said touched my heart. He said that he was okay with dying. He lived his life. The only thing he wanted done was to fix up his car for his grandkids so they could drive it.I only knew him for 2 years but there were days I looked forward to seeing him. Now I still look forward to seeing him just in entirely different place. In a place with no cancer, no pain and best of all, in the arms of God. Until then, I'll miss him.

A Friend not forgotten

2008-12-04T21:37:00.000-08:00

Raynell Joy Carpenter

A year ago I lost a dear friend. I didn't know her very long just over a year. She was called the "mc Donalds " lady . Everybody looked for when they came into Mc Donalds. ( I work at Mc Donalds). She always had a smile on the worst of days. And an ear for everyone she knew. She reminded me of my mother who I lost 20 years ago. She loved everyone unconditionally. You always knew if you needed a shoulder she was there.At her funeral I defined her in one word LOVE I know she is safe in God's embrace. A Friend Never Forgotten

Thanksgiving Shananigans

2008-12-01T16:01:00.001-08:00

I just wanted to leave a note about Thanksgiving. First of all I want to say thank you God for all the great people you surrounded me with and for my salvation. And a special thanks to Don and Karen for hosting the madness. Yeah, I said madness. 12 people including 3 toddler boys and a baby.Thank you to the Olhausers just for coming and Sue and Nathan for inviting me . No really we had a great time.Oh and a thanks to Karole for piddling around with us at Shopko. After that there was a sleep over consisting of the two that live there plus 9. We had to be there for early morning Christmas shopping. The women to shop the men to babysit.....The insanity....... Kohls , Fred Meyers, Wal*mart , K-Mart , Joanns and finally I H O P . We'll see you next year for the next round of insanity. All very exhausting. The next day I returned back to the Wood's house for Nathan's surprise B-Day party. Big 30. Not old I am 30. Just the beginning of a new decade of wonderful years. it was the first time I went Geocashing even thou I knew what the surprise was (Black Friday shopping) I had a blast. Lots of walking. Long weekend. But it being December there is many more to come..........

Dedication Day

2008-11-17T18:37:00.000-08:00

Well as you all know Sunday my son, Josiah, was dedicated. Our cousin Ella was too. So I just I would post some more photos of them together. Ella has changed a lot. She is beginning to smile with a lot of effort.

I couldn't decide which photo to post they are really close. It's funny to see how stiff Josiah is. You could tell he didn't want to drop her. Josiah loves Ella he kisses her every time he sees her. Anyway I think these are sweet pictures I hope you enjoy them as much as we do.........

Josiah' Dedication

2008-11-14T17:12:00.003-08:00

I figured it was about time to get my Son dedicated. I have been planning this for awhile but something always came up. Now that he's two it's time. My little boy doesn't seem to so little anymore I know he is a toddler but those precious baby moments are just great memories.

It makes it a little more special that our cousin Ella is also being dedicated. She is much, much younger. I have made a lot of changes in my life and I want my son to know God and live in his ways. And I hope that he won't struggle with his relationship with God as I have . Learning to walk with God is a bumpy path. But it is a small price to pay if salvation is at the end. Better late than never!!!!

Josiah with Cousin Ella

2008-11-04T16:58:00.000-08:00

Happy Halloween
This Halloween we went to the churches Trunk or Treat. We as usual had a blast. Josiah was a doctor and America was Miss America. Look how pretty she is. She is growing up so fast.My Little Man is cute too. Hope your Halloween was great.........

Learning to Walk with God

2008-11-01T21:15:00.000-07:00

Today in church we talked about David and about how life moves in cycles. You have your lowest , lows and your high points but also your time in the desert. My lowest low for me was two years ago and for those who know me well you know the torment that was.
Pastor Jeff talked how David was at his lowest and isolated himself away from people he loved I know what that is like because I was there I was in so deep and hurting so bad I didn't know who I was or even where to turn.
David's family was there for him just as mine I learned was there for me. He also said that Saul's son came and strengthened God's hand for him. That came first as my young daughters words as she said mama come to church with me. (from the mouth of a baby) Then by the arms that were wide open for me of my cousin and her husband.F ollowed by a church I have been going to for two years now and my home team.
I have finally did it, I have found God even though he was always there. Looking back I saw him all the time just didn't believe.
Now I have been baptized am a member of the praise choir at my church which I enjoy . Nothing like praising God by doing something you love. After all it was God who gave me the gift to do so. Even though I still struggle everyday God still blessing me to this day.
And to my daughter , my cousins, the members of my home team and Broadway Ave. Baptist Church (Bridgepoint Church, yeah!!!) a special thanks for showing me my way and for standing by me as I learn to walk with God.**********

Gods Blessings

2008-10-31T10:55:00.000-07:00

Being a new Christian it never fails to surprise me of the blessings that God gives. I just recently had great people come in my life. They with Gods power have blessed me with clothes not only for my children but for me.
Being a mother of two is hard married or especially by yourself. I thank God for all the blessings he brings to me most when I don't expect them.God has giving me so much in the last couple weeks. He knows that I struggle everyday if not to meet physical needs but emotional needs. It is a great blessing when people like these come into my life. I am thankful for all them. I now call my my eyeballs cry balls because God has softened my heart so much I cry a lot. But mostly happy!!!!!!

2008-10-27T17:18:00.000-07:00

Yesterday we welcomed a new addition to our family. His name is Dongwa...... He came home just fine and is a kitten to the extreme. He welcomed himself by chewing my ubs cable to my camera lol... So I have learned to keep him away from wires.I'm hoping that its a phase.
Josiah and America carved pumpkins today with Ella and Bryce. Family Fun!!!!

I'm giving this a try.

2008-10-25T10:11:00.001-07:00

I really don't know what to blog about .So I wrote this poem when I was expecting my son.

My Little Man
So many little hearts walk thru this world with parts of them missing, searching for a person.
There’s someone who looks for you
A victim of a lustful union
Trying to figure what went wrong
If its him
My little man
I will be the one to hold him close
Help him not fear
My little man
Tell me how that you can look at him
Not see your eyes , your nose , your smile
How can you turn to walk out the door
He has become a part of my heart
He deserves to be a part of yours
Why cant you see that he needs you
My little man
Your punishing him for what we have done
He is not the one
But blame is not important now
The little heart that I hold is
My little man