Knowing Myself

Finding Myself
Current mood:Somber

I have another friend who just lost a baby girl at six months. She delivered her yesterday. Teeny, under a pound. Apparently she had liver failure. I could never imagine how it feels. There was of course Isaac who I blog about before.

I also lost a friend not to long ago.He was battling cancer for the second time and lost. Or maybe he won because he's finally made it home safe in the arms of God...

These past losses in my life have brought me to realize some things about myself. Before this wouldn't have necessarily have had any effect on me. Since I have found my way back to God I have been humbled. My emotions and expectations in my life have changed for the better. But in some ways its lonelier. Which is hard but I am also learning to live with that too because I'm tired of people wanting to be with me for the wrong reasons.

I also have realized that it also has made me a better parent. My heart has changed a great deal when it comes to my kids. They are my gift from God and as I watch them grow it makes my heart SOAR. I'm thankful they are in my life everyday. I am so proud of my children and the people they are growing up to be.

My soul is more at peace. As a result my relationship with God is growing. But not only do I know God more, I know myself.